its 1:00 am on Jan 3, 2012. I brought in the new year amazing and once again i pray, i pray that for one no one gets ripped out of my fucking life on Jan 3. And mostly that no one gets ripped out this year alone. I am starting a new life and i want to only bring people in not have people taken away. Not this year. Let me have one fucking year to know God does love me, and that God does want me to have a sane life. I need everyone i have in my life for this year. I need everyone to be there for me this year. So many new things, no time for bad things to happen to me this year. Please i pray just one fucking year.
I swore to myself last year i would sleep this fucking day away after finding out about Aj but here it is 1 am and i cant sleep at all. It really sucks, i really hate that i cant just pretend this day never existed.
Rest In Peace, Joseph Michael, Casey James, and Aloysius James. <3
