January 2011
11 posts
Rough day ..
Well today has been a rough one..
I had the worst dream EVER! I dont even know how to take this one. Casey just yelled at me for so long in it about things that are currently going on in my life and i didnt understand it. After he was done yelling he left and then the whole accident happened and then i was forced to relive every minute of the funeral. I woke up in tears and couldnt go back to...
rant
So i hate people really .. A friend keeps saying i wanna see you please come home and blah blah. I was just home for a fucking month and didnt see you becuase making plans with the people who live back home was more important to you! Like really, grow the fuck up. I dont wanna see you, i dont really wanna talk to you because you keep pissing me off. Also i hate that this person assumes i should...
Change
So far change is going good. Hair is now Reddish brown and looks amazing!
Went out last night, worst idea ever just because i am dead tired but still had a blast with Lauren and Josh.
Classes are going alright, i have a long and rough semester ahead. Lots and lots and lots of work to be done. I am freaking out a bit but we will see where it takes me. I can handle it. I just gotta stay focused...
Today
Today is AJs funeral and i have been sitting here asking myself how come i didnt go, how come i didnt go to Wes’s funeral. Then it hit me, i didnt go because i want the memories i have of them to be the good ones. Not the ones of seeing them like that. Its not how i want to remember anyone but sadly the day of Casey&Joes funerals burst into my head anytime i talk about them. Its the...
looking forward to new
Well got back up to school. Walked in my room and BAM new roommate. It was nice to see i had one not gonna lie. I didnt like the thought of no one else living here. Although i spend most my time outta this room i still like that i am not 100% alone.
Got all my stuff unpacked and looks amazing in here. Loving my new rug. Hung out with Derek last night. Ended up going with him and one of his...
Getting Harder..
I talked to my friend all night about everything going on in my life, and i send my cousin who is also a pastor a message about everything. I really really searching right now for help. I am over people telling me it will be okay because i am sorry this has been going on for many years and its not okay and its not getting easier. How do you tell someone that when they have burried their best...
The day
Well here it is the day .. The day i lost my best friend. Last night i found myself crying next to the washer again. For some reason when i found out the news that is where i ran too and just sat on the floor and cried.. Well i did it again last night. I really cannot believe its been a year. So much has happened this year and so much has changed. Winter was hard, Summer was harder, and now well i...
New Years
Well so far the new year is doing good! Jenn and Jay (Joshs sister and brother in-law) Gave birth to their first baby on 1-1-11! Adelyn Lee was 8lbs 14 oz 20 inches! she is adorable! i can not wait to meet her!
Josh and I got to celebrate the new year together, it was nice just the two of us. We went out to dinner. We were going to go the jap place in great lakes but the wait was 2 hours so we...